Un/Reliable
I wanted to be the one who was everything to everyone
I wanted to be the colleague that could carry every task with grace
I wanted to be the student who always did all of their homework and the extra credit
I wanted to be the partner that would do anything for their love
I wanted to be the friend who was always present
Instead
I am the one who sleeps
I am the one who carries memories that bring nightmares
I am the one who is absent because of pain
I am the one who cannot
I cannot be there, I cannot do it
The pain suffocates
The memories make themselves known in who I am and what I do
Will I ever be whole?